Post-Camp Post: an attempt

I’ve had a few people email me and ask about Camp Shutter Sisters, and those I’ve met in person have all asked. So maybe it’s about time I try to put my feelings into words about this experience. Which is hard because the feelings run deep and strong, and I find myself at a loss for words (which is very, very rare for me).

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Sweet Darkness

When your eyes are tired
the world is tired also.


When your vision has gone
no part of the world can find you.


Time to go into the dark
where the night has eyes
to recognize its own.


There you can be sure
you are not beyond love.


The dark will be your womb
tonight.


The night will give you a horizon
further than you can see.


You must learn one thing,
the world was made to be free in.


Give up all the other worlds
except the one to which you belong.


Sometimes it takes darkness and
the sweet confinement of your
aloneness to learn


anything or anyone
that does not bring you alive


is too small for you.


-David Whyte from “The House of Belonging”

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First full day of Camp

Today was so full, and so incredible, that it will take me a long time to process it and share it.  Or maybe I will never share it.  Not all of it, anyway.  Some things are just meant to be taken in, digested, and then tucked away in the heart forever.

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Waiting to leave STL

It’s a photography trip, so we’re all documenting our journey to meet. It’s awesome to think of all these like-minded women coming together. So very cool.

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Why it’s so hard to leave

I’m not sure which one of us was more upset at the airport. I couldn’t help but think, “What the f*ck am I doing?!”
I told her that when she gets older, she’ll go with me on trips like this. I can only hope she’ll still want to.

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